..FoR yOu'Re So GoOd To Me..

1000 Words
I know that your hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily

I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You fight your battles far from me
Far too easily

"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain, when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart

Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time
And distance holding you, suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradel you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever

The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
You've been there with me all the way
I still hear you say

"Wait for me, I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stand with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore
To hide the doubt when I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm stroing enough to know it's not too late

Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see
I know they are reaching you, suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradel you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever

Oh a thousand words (a thousand words)
Have never been spoken (ohh yeah)
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home, (carry you home) and into my arms
Suspended on silver wings (on silver wings!)
And a thousand words (ohh)
Call out through the ages (call through the ages!)
They'll cradel you (ohh yeah)
Make all of the lonely years to lonely days (lonely days)
They'll hold you forever.

Ohhhhhhhhhhh a thousand words

boredom.. utter boredom!! oh man.. could you ever feel this bored?? and what's worse, i dont have lunch!! *contemplating instant mee or starve or buy something worth 1.50 which is all i have in my wallet* haix.. siandeds.. if only i could meet him for lunch.. but he's having a date with this girl now.. hahax.. just his primary school mate dont worry.. so enthu sia.. i barely talk to my primary school friends anymore.. oh goodie!! she's cooking maggi mee for me.. yums.. just now i talked on the phone with him for 2 hours? yesterday i dont know how long.. practically the whole day.. hehx.. his mum is so gonna freak when she sees the bill.. he says he's gonna pay though.. haix.. we should not talk on the phone so long i know, but it's so hard for us to meet so phone's the next alternative.. curry mee!! with egg!! im so b pissed off.. just now i was downloading this humongous(?) file from dear alex, and my msn screwed up when it was half done!! craps.. waste my time.. haix.. okies.. haix.. his sister is real cute you know? nice person with a sweet voice!! hehx.. but she doesnt like her voice though.. aiyah.. i also dont like my voice ma, but who cares right? hahax.. i heard his sis is real pretty, and apparently better than me in everything.. yesterday he pissed me off real bad.. that day we went for bbq, he asked for a girl's number. so she was my friend, but jealousy is me. hahax.. so anywayx, he didnt know what was the freaking problem until his friend told him what if i asked for another guy's number? he got the point. hehx.. anyways, i also got it that i shouldnt be so suspicious and everything, and i sent him back he number cos he deleted it, plus a few of my friend's numbers that he wanted, but he deleted it again. waste my sms sia.. like my sms already not enough for him and he still come waste my sms.. hmmmx.. i dunno what to say.. hehx.. headache!! i shouldnt be spending so much time in front of the com. i think my eyesight is deproving already. hope not.. i went to see this skin doctor!! i think it's quite good.. i sense some improvements already.. hehx.. but of course, im being psycho as usual. hehx.. the first time i washed my face with his cleanser, my mum already said, "I think your face looks better!" hahax.. she's always like that.. hmmmx.. that guy say, cannot apply anything to your face.. then why do skin care companies come up with products for man?? i think my mee is ready.. nothing much to say also.. hehx.. anyone can teach me how to deco this blog thing?? look at jun yi's one.. real nice!! hmmmx.. gtg ya.. hehx..

yesterday went class bbq with him.. at east coast.. it was kinda nice, cos we spent like almost the whole day together.. then he helped us a lot, cos the class guys dont know all die to where, then he help us carry, the ntuc trolley(hehx) and start the fire.. busy guy.. then all my friends all thought he is a very nice guy when i was the one who ask him to help them ok?? hahax.. anywayx.. east coast is a really nice place to be with your loved ones, like family and friends.. ya.. 8 plus, my mum called say she leaving office. then she say she will call again when reach. in the end, she didnt call and they walked to our pit.. what the.. lucky we didnt go the bench to sit.. otherwise get caught sia.. then grace say want take photo so we all take.. then he and alex's friend help us take.. what the.. haix.. nothing else le.. i think he reach home quite late yesterday cos he dont know how go home ma.. and cck isnt exactly very near.. so he reach home elevn plus ba.. then i think he wake up ten this morning.. pig.. hahax.. but his call woke me up, so i even more pig lor.. hahahax.. in the end my dear cousin was starving and bored.. so sorry!!! yesterday play volleyball whole body aching sia.. and i came home bathe feel so shiok and clean.. hahax.. no more crap le..

meeting today.. then he wanted me to go some place at cineleisure to take picture.. 25 bucks for 10.. i guess is quite cheap, cheaper than neoprint but i didnt really like the idea cos it's like you have to fork out a larger amount of money at one time? haix.. anywayx, my dear gor nigel was also encouraging me to go cos for memories ma, but haix.. anyways, i think he decided today that we're not going. or maybe we are. i dunnox la.. there was once he wanted me to take this trishaw ride thing.. cost fifteen bucks.. it's like.. he always spend, then after that no money, then he will spend a lot again.. i is spend, but i spend on cheap and practical things.. guess im a practical woman.. anywayx, he alwayx has to make me seem like a bad girl in front of my gor. that time we break, he also told gor, then gor come persuade me patch.. is zi yuan la, but i like always made to look like the bad person lor.. am i that bad?? yesh.. apparently.. dunnox la.. so i think we're going now.. i hate taking photos!! apart from the one in his phone, cos can retake till i look chio, or half chio. hahax.. and now i having breakout, and ill seriously look damn horrible in the photo.. haix.. dunnox la.. he want take then take lor.. later he come use guilt tactic on me again.. forever using it on me.. haix.. go off le.. very hots sia.. window all close.. im melting!!

yesterday was my last day in tp.. so sad to leave sia.. i gave my heart letters(love letters) to my gors and jie. sad sad cannot give letter to my yun jun personally.. had to pass through glenn.. then yun jun's love letter special got one dog dog present.. very cute de wor.. glenn jealous down there.. hahax.. i think all my gor and jie touch wor.. hahax..haix.. after school went out with chuan.. went tampines walk walk sit sit.. very tired sia yest.. leg pain and head damn pain. then saw my jie at ljs.. cool.. i was blowing bubbles and this two girls walking behind us kana.. then chuan ask me dont play le.. so sians.. who ask them walk behind us.. hrmphs.. spoil my fun.. hahax.. haix.. miss my gor leh.. miss yun jun.. never see him last time.. yest damn funny. i recess time order food, then i open my wallet, ah!! no money!! hahax.. had to borrow from my friend five bucks..hafta return her on monday.. haix.. wallet no money sia.. sians.. i dont really have much to say today leh.. boring day today.. im alone at home cos my parents brought my grandma for her checkup and my sis went out with her bf. dunno whether there's noodle left, otherwise no lunch for me.. used to not eating anyways.. hahax. ok la.. nothing to say then dont crap le..

went out with him after school today.. i decided i shall post everything we did straight away so i wont forget anything due to an amazingly bad memory i have. it was raining and he messaged me to tell me to be careful and all and dont fall down. curse me.. hahax.. then he met me at the bus stop opposite tampines mrt. walk over hand in hand. hehx.. i just realized i might be grossing out people here.. hahax.. ate lunch at east link food court(?) and bought the nice qq bear(?) wallet that i like for very long. cost 12.90 and after that went tm walk walk.. dont know for what also. nothing much to see. hehx.. went 77th street and compare fashion sense. hahax.. saw my classmates!! joshua, ker hong, kelven and who ah?? dont know which of the guys la. hahax.. and later saw michelle and si ya. went home lor, cos nothing to do ma. before that he bought my nail buffer. now he only has five bucks left, and he couldnt top up his card.. poor thing.. shall not spend his money anymore.. im not so mean.. haix.. tomorrow is the last day of school.. so depressing.. hope hong yi comes.. he is sick at home.. i hope.. as in.. hope he never lie to me.. hehx.. i trust him la.. i trust everyone!! really.. i must be the most gullible idiot on earth.. anyways, on the bus i was trying to sleep.. i dunno.. buses always seem to make me sleep nowadays.. but of course i couldnt sleep with him next to me. but the stupid tv mobile was showing the retarded just kidding. gets on my nerves these type of shows that make fun of people. haix.. when we got on the bus my darling fushigi yuugi just finished. hummed aloong to the song. hehx.. btw, if you people dont know what's fushigi yuugi, where have you people been!!! it's the nicest show on earth man.. so nice and romantic.. and the characters are like so cute like all japanese animation. i wanna buy the vcd but it costs 81 bucks for 18 cds... im trying to persuade my sis to buy it for my birthday and share it with my mum. my birthday's 10th november by the way.. im a scorpy!! hehx.. didnt want to go home straight cos my granma and her helper's at home and i dont really know what to talk to them so went to the clubhouse to sit. i thought it would be safe there but i was wrong. my neighbor came and we had to leave. darn.. hope she doesnt spill.. haix.. i dread the day we get caught.. my head will absolutely roll.. my parents dont approve of these relationships things. actually my mum says it's fine as long as my studies are not affected. but i think that if she knows about it she will kill one lor. parents are never known to be truthful.. waiting for the day we can be open.. it's so hard to be tou tou mo mo you know?? haix.. so i went home lor. then took the lift up and saw my daughter and her mum(no not me). heng she didnt see us man.. it will be worse then us seeing my neighbor. came home and my 3rd aunt was here. she come and visit my granma ma.. then my aunt is those type whole day complain one lor. so one ear opera one ear scoldings. sians.. nothing to do now.. very bored sia.. how long before he reaches home?? bored.. should go sleep.. hehx.. oh yas.. anyone wanna add me to friendster is bashful.blush@mad.scientist.com thankies..

heyax!! im mei sze aka sze aka mei z.. i am sixteen going seventeen and i have parents and an elder sis aged 25.. i have no idea what to say here.. hahax.. today i went out with my half bf.. he was my ex, then he keep asking me for patch lor.. im not sure about my feelings for him thats why i dont know whether i should patch.. so today we went out together. he was wearing the shirt that i gave him(cost 20 bucks ok??) and he was treating me really sweet.. i felt quite happy most of the time except when he make me angry. hehx.. so he ask for patch and i didnt agree and i didnt refuse but i sorta have a feeling we're back together. btw, in case anyone is dying to know, my stead's from cck sec and he's my age. now im studying at tpjc while he's just doing nothing and soon ill be going ajc. i hope.. ya.. he'll be going poly.. sp i think.. hehx.. it was quite romantic today.. we got share drink(he didnt use to share food until he met me) and we bought that retarded bubble thing and were blowing it at the bus stop near my place. hahax.. i told him that next time when i get married i want that thing to be blown when i walk down the aisle. that's if i get married. hahax.. the first day i met him was february 9th, the day after his birthday. i knew him from irc and i agreed to meet him. we bought cup noodles and sat at the stairs near my school to eat. after we were done eating, he asked me to be his stead and i thought for a while.. i asked him to remember the time and that's how we started. it was 1658. yeps.. i guess i was happy when i was with him but i took him for granted.. haix.. my fault.. it put a strain on our relationship. some more, i sorta had feelings for my gor hong yi.. anyway, that's a thing of the past. now we're just back to gor and mei. and in a few days ill be leaving him.. and kah meng and joseph and yun jun and yu yan.. these are my gors and jie. i really cant bear to leave tp but i guess i hafta cos it's really quite far from my home and aj is kinda my dream school. so anyways, after three weeks and two days, ie last wed, we broke.. i kinda thought that we werent compat for each other and we wouldnt be happy with each other. some more i not sure about my feelings for him. now i guess we're back together, and i really hope to treasure him and not take him for granted. i know he's really a very good guy. he everytime from cck come all the way to tampines to find me leh. sweet right?? and when i no money he always help me top up much as i dont like him to. and he always pay for my stuff. today i bought food, drink, rubber band, all he pay. okies.. gotta get back to my work.. talk more next time when i feeling chatty. hehx..